I hit the wall a couple of weeks ago.
That wall where you WANT to write, you want to get your thoughts out, but you just… can’t. There are a few reasons for this, but here are the biggest roadblocks I’m dealing with right now:
Lil’ Ziggy stopped sleeping well at night, which is a major bummer after having about six weeks of lovely solid 8-hour slumbers. Over the last few weeks, I spent way too many hours in the darkness, seething and trying to calm myself down so that I can calm HIM down. It was a miserable time for both of us.
What’s worse, I don’t even think it was the “4-month leap” that everyone with babies his age are talking about. I know that the leap is associated with a significant jump in cognitive function, he’ll start reaching out for things and interacting in more and new ways. But he’s still the same. Rather than waking up every hour like many moms report around this time, Lil’ Ziggy would give me 3-4 hours of sleep, but then he won’t go BACK to sleep afterwards.
Dealing with that night after night began to take its toll, and I really didn’t like how I was starting to respond to certain things. My temper was short, I was irritable and cried easily. Thankfully, he’s given me a bit of a break in the last couple of nights, and I feel more like myself. The “leap” is still coming, and I’ll have to deal with that when it happens. But I am looking forward to what Lil’ Ziggy will be able to do once it is over, and I know it’ll be worth it.
Another reason for my hiatus is actually a big announcement – we are moving! Chris landed a job in Calgary, and it starts in mid-August. We have just a couple of weeks to get all our stuff in order and go. There’s so much to do, from finding real estate agents to talking to the bank, to making sure all our bills get forwarded. So our living room looks like this right now:
(by the way, all three of those bins are filled with baby toys. Oy vey…)
Between purging multiple places in our home and making calls to moving companies and ticking off that never-ending moving to-do list, my days have been pretty much 100% spent. We have made a game plan, though, that will make moving a lot easier. I’ll be relying heavily on Chris in the evenings and weekends as moving with a baby certainly has its challenges!
I’ll write a separate post about my feelings on the reality of moving, as I wanted this post to really explain where my head is at, and why I’ve been a little quiet lately. I’m going to try harder to at least get those little updates in here and there. To all of you who are following along, thank you so much for your continued support of my writing!
Fellow bloggers, how do YOU find the time and motivation to keep blogging when life gets overwhelming? I’d love to hear your advice!
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